Sunday 26 January 2014

2. grace




The horse galloped through the field making my hair billow behind me. The day was warm and it buzzed with wildlife, which fed off of the vegetation of the field I rode in. The birds sang their tunes and flew around not bothered about Stan and me. The butterflies landed on the flowers by the white fence to collect the nectar and all was well. The day like my spirit was warm and glowing, though it did nothing but make my pale complexion look sickly. Stan was a beautiful steed with black and white fur and white tufts. He was by no means extraordinary but he was special to me and I to him. I rode with no saddle or reins nor whip or controlling methods I often thought cruel. We were bare back and empty of contents. Just the simple way I moved my body or stroked his thick glossy fur made him understand my wish, which he usually fulfilled unless he knew a better way which I listened to. That was the pure beauty almost freedom of our relationship I listened to him, and he to me. We gave each other what we wanted if he was hungry I fed him, if he wanted company I gave it to him and if I needed him he would be there in a glance. We had cuddled up with each other under the night stars many times both of us sheltering the other. This day was good and bright my long light brown curly hair, flowing through the air like grass flowed when there was a wind the day was glorious. I gasped and flinched as a sharp pain travelled down my back creeping down to my ankles as I rode. The blue sky cracked and thundered and turned a grey so dark it was almost black. Stan stumbled in terror his galloping feet skidded on the floor and he tripped over them causing us to fall to the ground. The crushing weight of his body pinned me to the floor... 

I woke with a sudden start after bashing my head painfully on the rounders bat I was holding. The insults of my uncle had stopped and so had the pounding on my bedroom door. The chest of draws I had somehow managed to pull before it had barred his entrance, despite this I sat leaning against it helping it jam the door. For a moment I sat silent just listening to the house trying to distinguish footsteps or harsh breathing through the hum of the radiator and clinks of the pipes. There was nothing but silence; still I clutched the rounders bat and glanced at the clock upon the floor of my bedroom. For me having dozed off I had, had a good nights sleep but it had been dangerous. I opened the curtains that allowed the world to flood into me ... 

It was bitter cold out on the platform so I hopped onto the train with my yearlong ticket as fast as I could, to escape the cold and the border patrols that were around the city like flies, their attention had been drawn by something. I watched as they walked upon the deserted platform flashing their torches around in their group of four. They had appeared in their uniforms their build was eerie and made most people shiver at the very thought of them, but not me. My skin was already covered in goose pimples from the cold air, their uniforms were white all around apart from their heavy black boots that often left deep creators in the surfaces they marched on be they concrete or earth. Their heads were covered in white balaclavas that had no openings. Upon them across the middle of the material was a large picture of a black eye looking out at whoever dared to gaze upon it. These eyes though were not merely drawings as the flat surfaces often oozed black, as the eye darted around searching the world for those that would not be part of the Establishment. Many of these so-called outlaws and outcasts were no longer heard of, in fact there had been over 100 years of silence from them, but regardless the patrols of the regime continued. The transport revved up and I jumped back in my seat in a surprised horror as a fifth patrol guard I had not spotted before, popped up before my window banging its thick white hand on the glass as it eyed me. The eye began drooling so thickly and fast the black sludge began rolling down its head. The patrol guard blinked its eye upon me, and just in time the transport pulled away and continued upon its way on the ancient tracks to the city. Weary of the few stops I had before we got to the city I sat back in my seat shaking.

“ What was that about” The ticket conductor said

I shrugged and the man stamped half a day off of my ticket...



At around 9 a.m I woke to find the room still deserted as I lifted my head up I realised there was something stuck to my face, judging by the sticky warm sensation on my cheek. As I moved my hand towards it to peel it off, it fluttered to the floor. Like a discarded raffle ticket the bright Magenta card contrasted against the light brown carpet and dark shadowed wood of the desk. It was a small card similar to the poster on the wall outside. The only difference being it simply said EVERYBODY WANTS TOO, in thick black writing on its plain Magenta background I turned the card around trying to distinguish its concept and that of the poster outside. The back too was almost plain, on the bottom of the card was the small image of the Hillside hotel which had since been turned into a block of flats all of which were in use, bar from a small disused room on its base. Above the building almost like a rising moon that wanted to escape the orbit of the card were the handwritten words tonight 10PM . ..

When I opened my eyes and looked up from the ground where I had been laying the world outside the bushes was packed with silent standing figures now stood in a semi circle looking curiously up at the shack from a safe distance. Each of the eight figures stood twirling, scrunching and fiddling with the magenta cards in their hands. Slowly I got up letting natures litter fall from me as I tried to steady myself through my aching head. I held onto the trees and edged to the outer edge of the bushes as I clutched my card.  It was then I realised from each of their crazy coloured and styled hair or their Establishment uniforms, that every single one of them was a regular at the basement reading room, like me. As the glowing moon hovered over the tower blocks mimicking the invitation cards, we all jumped backwards completing the circle a ninth dark figure had appeared wearing a long magenta tie and a sinister smile. His cloak like coat billowed into the night and despite our reaction he stood calmly taking everyone in.
“ Welcome” Disarray said “ I see you all got your cards, you all know why you are here lets go inside…”

                                                                                                                        
( Extract from: We Only Defy The Laws Of Gravity When We Have Too, Chapter 2)

Wednesday 22 January 2014

Someone's cold


stick your ass up
 in the air.

if you're feeling
 the cold air.

Tuesday 14 January 2014

1. Disarray




The magenta ink stained my fingertips as I took the paper from the printer and held it out before me. My room was tiny- small- I was high risk so I didn’t get much- not that I hadn’t managed to- collect my own resources. Home -for me-  was a small 1-roomed square flat in the Establishment tower blocks. I was lucky enough to have a window in my room, the building I lived in had- at one point before the Establishment been a hotel- so the view outside wasn’t so bad- the Establishment saw that as a negative.  It was like anyone who didn’t like the city- the industrialised world was wrong. And as punishment for being intelligent enough to have my own opinions I had been plonked on the Ark hill overlooking the city like a mountainous grass verge - but I didn’t mind- I was on the ground floor. Like me being able to see the grass and sky was a punishment to them – in my eyes it was nothing but a bonus.  It let me see what was out there – beyond the dirty money and cruel concrete compounds.  That’s all the city was really a giant concrete compound, enforced by the Establishment- and money- for all those rare few who were able to bribe them. Usually the bribes didn’t go well – unless there was an ulterior motive, the Establishment would take the money and then execute whoever had tried to pay them off. The more money you had the more drawn out and painful the execution would be – sometimes- I thought they deserved it...

It was dark and blustery when I stepped out late that Wednesday night; the wind rattled the long in need of repair windows. It was past curfew I had to be careful if the patrols caught me then that would be it for my plan- and my life.


The streets flashed after dark with bright white  searchlights that hugged every inch of the city’s night-time streets. The lights pounced from wall to wall trying to find whoever had broken curfew, sometimes an unlucky head looking out of a window would catch a bullet-or laser. Most of the searchlights were for show- to make people think they were being watched- so they wouldn’t be disobedient- even the rats knew to stay away from them. Startled by the light they’d squeal as it blinded them and leap from their night-time feasts as though someone had put a rocket up their asses. Deep in the thick of the Establishment buildings security was tighter than the rest of the city, and the searchlights faster. Some of them even disintegrated the people they caught in a mass of torn flesh and nerves nothing would be left of a person but a small puddle of blood and singed concrete. But that was probably a better way to go than the Establishment lasers. The city centre was teaming with them, even from a distance I could see them like a storm of light crashing through the city. Even with the patrols I was safer in the dark...  


 Anyone watching wouldn’t have known what I was doing, I was a speck a small shadow crossing the room from side to side corner to corner shelf to shelf, shelf to desk, desk to desk. Pulling a swish of rectangle magenta from a hidden pocket and losing it in a secret place, only for eyes that wanted to see it.  It didn’t even take a minuet, within seconds I was back in the corridor fulfilling the integral part of my plan. It was important for the others that they themselves made the initial discovery so they could come to their own conclusions. They needed to view the poster first before they even found the cards, and for that reason I pulled out the magenta tube I had stuffed inside my coat and unrolled it. Between the passage door and the basement reading room of the library opposite the winding metallic stairs was a dead end nothing but a solid Establishment blue wall. It was there I slapped the crease free Magenta poster up in the dead centre clear to all who entered in whatever direction they came from.  Job done I turned on my heels and let my shadowy footsteps echo out of the building.


 (extract from : We Only Defy The Laws Of Gravity When We Have Too, Chapter 1)